This week I have been debating on what to write about. My youngest child turned 5 today so that is exciting news. I had thought about fitting that in but I also received devastating news a few weeks ago and then again this past Sunday.
On Sept 29th, a woman that I went to high school with (Vicky Tully) and her 20 year old daughter Liz Tully were involved in a head on collision with a FED EX truck in the middle of the afternoon. Vicky and the driver of the other vehicle (Kevin Frank) died at the scene and Liz was rushed to the hospital in critical condition. Liz fought for almost 2 weeks for her life and on Oct 12th she passed away. I felt the need to write about this also.
So I have decided to incorporate both.
As my youngest child continues to grow up I find myself more times than not wanting to add to our family. The desire comes and goes but I found myself in the most recent weeks with a hard time ignoring the desire of wanting another child.
I always wanted four children. I am not sure why but that is the number I came up with at a very young age and it’s always stuck. My husband had always wanted four also. That is until his baby girl was born and then he felt complete. I still don’t feel complete at times. I want to be complete but I feel like there is a missing link and I am not sure why. So time and time again I think about the possibility of another child.
Then it seems something happens to remind me of what I have. This heartbreaking tragedy that the Tully’s and Mr. Frank’s family are going through changed it for me. I found myself on Sunday fighting back the tears. I have been keeping my husband up to date on the accident and broke the news of Liz’s passing on Sunday. I told him also how I had thought about asking him to really consider another child but after the most recent news I was grateful for the family I did have.
God has blessed me in more ways than I can count. I try to always remember to thank him for all that I have. Yet, here I am wanting more. What right do I have to ask for more when so many are losing those they love? We are all very healthy with no major medical issues. Shouldn’t that be enough? The answer is yes. If God wanted me to add to the family he would see to it that it happened. Whether or not that does ever happen I am grateful. I will cherish what I do have and continue to work on making it the best life for us I can.
This quote always impacts me. We really need to focus on today because we don’t know what tomorrow will bring.
As you go through your day please keep the Tully and Frank families in your prayers and all those who have lost loved ones.
Eternal rest grant unto them, O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon them. May the souls of all the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.
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