Last week my two boys began a new year in 2nd and 4th grade. My oldest, (J) found out that one of his best friends was going to be in his class and he was very excited about that. (R) on the other hand didn’t think anyone he knew was going to be in his class.
The first day came and at their school everyone lines up in the parking lot to meet the teachers. (J) found his class and once his friend arrived he was all set. Now for (R) it seemed all the boys in the class already knew each other except for (R) and a lot of parents knew the teacher already.
You see, last year was our first year at this school and I dreaded the first day. Would my boys make friends? Would they like their new school? Did I buy the right kind of backpack and school supplies? Are their outfits ok? Did I make the right decision? Would they get picked on or ganged up on? I had so many fears and yet at the end of the day they both came out happy. They said everyone was so nice and everyone listened. They hadn’t necessarily made friends yet but that was ok with them.
So for (R) it seemed like a repeat of last year’s fears and my heart began breaking all over again. He stood next to me quiet ((R) is not a quiet kid). The boys in his class got together for a picture and he was not in it. Ughh..
All I want for my child is happiness. I don’t want my child to hate school or dread going. I want to know that all the fights with my husband to move into a better town with better schools was all worth it. Please God, please let this be the right choice.
I believe that is all I have to do. If I just keep turning it over to God and letting him take care of it, it will all be ok. It may not be ok 100% of the time but I have to trust the reasons behind them and know that everything happens for a reason even if we don’t know the reason. I have to have faith that the friends (R) is supposed to have he will eventually have. They will both be ok and when my daughter begins there next year she will be ok too.
(The reason I am using R and J for my children is while this is a public blog I do not feel comfortable using my children’s actual names.)
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