So my take off didn’t go to well. When I began my new journey I had an infant and two toddlers to deal with so trying to fit in blogging was a challenge. However, now my baby is 4 and I now have more time to devout to my blog and writing about all the wonderful (and not so wonderful) things I have discovered. So I will try again.
As I try to balance all the aspects of being a stay-at-home mom and learning to keep my sanity I have found it has been a huge challenge. Yet, I have learned to embrace it and make the most from it. Everyday is a learning experience and I have been learning so much. Not only am I learning to be a parent I have also been on an eye-opening religious journey. Two years ago I shared my story on a retreat and I would like to share parts of it with all of you. Maybe it will help you to understand my journey a little more.
Finding My Way Home: As a young girl I went to Catholic school. By the time I got to high school I began questioning my beliefs and not finding answers. The message I was hearing was that not only would I go to hell for having sex but that I was going to hell for kissing a boy. Why would God send me to hell for that?? I never questioned God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit or Mary but the message I was getting from the Catholic school. It was different from what I thought an all loving God was so I considered myself more spiritual.
My husband’s siblings have all left the Catholic church and joined other Christian churches. When I met them they asked what religion I was. I told them I was raised Catholic but was more spiritual and wasn’t sure anymore. So then they asked me to go to church with them which I did. I loved all the singing and dancing there and thought maybe this could be the church for me.
All my life I knew I wanted to be a mother. I felt a calling to be a mom but I was hit with the reality that what happens in your childhood will affect you the rest of your life. I wondered what church should I bring my children to? Do I bring them to my in-laws church where at least I know I won’t have to go to church alone or do I continue on with the catholic church but know it will be a lonely journey (or so I thought) since I am the only Catholic in the family who goes to church weekly. I wanted to find answers so I wasn’t always second guessing myself and I didn’t want to just take what looked like the ‘easy road’.
We owe it to our children to help make their childhood one that they will look back on and smile or the best of what we can give to them. And for me making some religious decisions was a key factor.
I began exploring different religions but also began really learning about the Catholic church. I was given different paths to get to the answers that I was so desperately in search of. The love I always had for God and wanted to have for the church had now been solidified.
I started my journey off not knowing where I would end up but I ended up finding my way home, home to the Catholic church. That has brought me happiness I have never known and a euphoria that is just awesome. This is just a part of my religious journey and my journey may be very different from yours. You may not have had a journey yet and my only advice is that God is always with us especially when we think he is not. But if you are not truly open to the journey you may just miss it. When you finally find yourself open and being guided onto a journey it is an unbelievable one. One worth the voyage.
I hope you will continue to join me as I learn the ins and outs of motherhood, staying home and the Catholic church.
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